Currently Watching Grey's Anatomy - Season Two By Ellen Pompeo, Sandra Oh, Katherine Heigl, Justin Chambers, T.R. Knight, Chandra Wilson, James Pickens Jr., Kate Walsh, Isaiah Washington, Patrick Dempsey see related

here we go....

the news of the moment is that my dad got a job at St. Jude's Hospital in Memphis, TN.....which obviously means my family will be moving down there.  they're gonna be 10 hours away from me all the way up here in Ada.  he's sooo excited about it and my mom may be even more excited than he is.  it's going to be quite the change....the only home i know is in dayton so i'll have to adjust quite a bit.  i'm real nervous about it, esp since my fam will be so far away....i'll be in ohio all by myself then, with amanda in missouri and the rest of them in tennessee.  it's going to be an adventure and i am excited about it for my dad because he definately deserves it but i also can't help being scared.....this is for the best and it's happening for a reason and i guess we'll just see where this takes us from here, eh?

other than that, i've been crazy busy this year with school and my sorority and a ton of other things.....sometimes i just don't even know what to do with myself.  but i've been holding my own and kept myself going which is something to be proud of. classes have been challenging but i'm doing my best....hanging in there for just a couple more weeks....

so much has changed in the last couple of months.....i've been going with the flow as much as i can.  i've been growing up so much and handling more than ever because i had no other choice.  it's like i woke up and everything was different.  i was pushed into reality and i would either sink or swim....i'm not exactly swimming yet...maybe more of a dog paddle but i'm getting my things in order and figuring what to do with my life and where to go from here....life is a process and you make choices and you live and you learn.....i'm right where i'm supposed to be and i'm going to be just fine....maybe even better than fine....maybe even amazing.

"Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but EASY...so the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're AMAZING. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's BRAVE enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree."
lesson--> find yourself a climber

Currently Listening Keep It Together By Guster see related

here we are again....

classes are going decently...i have my first physio quiz on monday and my first big biochem exam next friday so we'll see how that goes....i'm learning to do CPR in my first aid class which is real neat...we have these resusitation annie dolls we use to practice on....everything else is okay....i'm trying real hard not to get behind...

i'm getting my work out everyday walking to and from class b/c i live on the opposite side of campus....it's like a 15 minute walk which is really nice in this weather but i'm not lookin forward to the winter....though my favorite part of my walks everyday are the ducks by the duck pond...they're milling around everyday quackin to each other and lookin for little snacks or taking little naps together under a tree...i looove it!  i just wanna pick one up and take it back to the apt. with me b/c they're just sooo cute!

my sister is doing really well in missouri....she's such a little smarty pants!  she's kickin butt in all her classes and getting along well so far away...i'm still missing her bunches but i'm dealing....she's doin so much better than i would if i was that far away...

my dad has been going on a couple job interviews the past couple of weeks....we're hoping he finds what he's looking for and something that'll make him comfortable and happy....chances are it'll be relatively far away but i'm not all that concerned about it....my family has always been the real tight kind and i think we can make it work with whatever happens...we'll go wherever and figure things out when we get there....it'll be quite the adventure....

i'm looking forward to the weekend....i have a date with my mom on saturday which i'm looking forward to...those are always my favorite....and i can't wait to sleep in and rest a little! 

anyway, that is all from me for now b/c physio and biochem are callin my name....it's a loong night of review and studying ahead....

Find the one you can be yourself around. You can say whatever you want, you can laugh, you can smile, you can scream, you can hug and kiss, you can fight and make up....and at the end of the night, he's still crazy about you.

so the first week of classes is almost over....my schedule isn't looking too bad i just have quite a few 1 hour breaks during my day that #1: make the day seem like it lasts forever and #2: are just completely unnecessary....the actual class part isn't awful, i'm taking biochemistry and physiology which might prove to be quite the challenge but i feel like since i got through O-Chem i can do just about anything. 

i made cookies today in my new little kitchen and let me just say they're amazing.....b/c i've definately already eaten like 7....i'm still excited about this apartment thing and i love having a kitchen and everything.....it's absolutely fantastic.  me and miss jennyking are just living the high life....

otherwise there is really nothing new or interesting  in my life right now....i'm taking 1 day at a time and finding my independence.  i don't need any help and i don't need pity....i'm going to handle this by myself....my ducks are still very skewed but eventually they'll all fall into their line....until then i'm okay with not knowing what's coming my way, that's part of the fun, eh?  just flying by the seat of my pants hoping for the best.

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want... and just see what happens

i'm all moved into my new apartamento at school and it's very very nice....a huge bathroom and a big closest and a kitchen....i really like it a lot.  my roomate is moving in today and i'm very excited because i have missed her a bunch and i hate being in this big apartment all alone....i like company.  anyway, i'm still kinda working on putting stuff away but i'll get there eventually....

so i'm learning to do things by myself....i hooked up my computer all by myself (which was a first) and it turned on.....i built my book shelves all by myself...they got the best of me to begin with but i won the war....and though i couldn't figure out the coffee machine at first and made a huge mess....i made myself i cup of coffee today with no mess.  i can accomplish things....it may take me a couple tries but dang it i get it sooner or later by myself.  this is a ginormous step for me....a lot of times i just rely on people to do things for me but not any more because i can do it......it seems i'm a lot stronger, smarter and independent than people think that i am....they underestimate me....and most of the time i underestimate myself....

it's still very hard and i'm not okay but it can only get better because it can't hurt any worse.....

"Everything is ok in the end, if it's not ok, it's not the end."